July 30, 2015
“Steve, now you get to go places! Steve, if you go anywhere where it would be?” New York and Eagle River of coarse. “You can do anything now. Let’s go out! You need to go out more. Also, you need an augmentative communication device.” I just spent one hundred dollars for armrests and an urinal today. Mom didn’t have insurance on the van! So I won’t be going anywhere. Mom used up my money in the lock box that I saved for two years for PR! It makes me angry. The world is at my fingertips but it is beyond my reach. “Morse code is too slow, Steve. Get an augmentative communication device” … which probability costs ten grand. “You can go bowling with disabled people.” Me bowling, right? I can’t afford that! I just want to be published, write, be with a woman and go up north this fall. I don’t want much in life. But how can I start living without money? Damit it mom! What were you thinking? I’ll make it!
July 27, 2015
College classmates are always there for each other. Emailing my mother’s college classmates notifying them about my mother’s passing is hard, but reading her classmate’s good memories of my mother reminds me of my classmates. My classmates are helping me get through this difficult time in my life. They have visited me like they said that would when I needed their support. We always knew that something like this would happen. My dear old friends have reminded me that they will be there every step of the way. I will visit my friends now. It’s a new life!
Passion is a skill that not many have. Passion is what drives you forward in reaching your dreams. Without passion there is no life.
July 20, 2015
While the Governor campaigns in Iowa as a reformer of education and a progressive of long-term home health care, I’m starting a new life. A staff is being assembled. I have met four new attendants in the past days. There are more attendants coming. It’s a major life adjustment having new people watch and take me to the bathroom. But I’ll adjust. Just be patient with me please. I’m not really mad at my family. Sometimes I overdo it with my writing. So I will apologize to my family. This is not easy for them either especially for my sister. She is grieving too! She has a career, two girls, a deadline to meet for a project and undo a big mess. My sister and I have to get along now. That won’t be easy because we have never gotten along. I will try. We’re both stubborn. I love her. She is the most beautiful woman that I know. I’m sorry.
July 20, 2015
July 6, 2015
It’s my best friend’s birthday this week. She means the world to me. A man needs a woman to confide in. This is especially true for a disabled man. I probably won’t ever have a girlfriend. But Amber is always there. She almost died this spring, which would have broken my heart. She thinks that no one will need her, but I will always need my sister! I love you, Amber! Happy Birthday.